June 17th/ 37 weeks 2 days

On Tuesday the 14th we had our check-up with Dr. Lake. He came in and told us we were going to do the C-Section earlier, which we already knew. We talked about doing it on Thursday the 16th (yesterday) and even started to plan the Pre-Op appointment but after going in for the Bio-phyical Dr. Lake decided to wait until Monday the 20th so I will be almost 38 weeks. I think his thinking is the same as mine, that the longer Tristan stays in the more developed his lungs and everything will be. However,  Dr. Allaire didn't want us to go over 38 weeks so he didn't want to go against him either. He said the reason that Dr. Allaire doesn't want us to go over is because the risk of still-birth goes up. So we have one last check-up which is today (Friday) for a non-stress test. Since Dr. Lake isn't going to be in today he went ahead and did all of our Pre-Op paperwork and discussed the risks of the c-section and ofcourse the negative possiblities with the baby which even though I know what they are, it is still really hard to hear. I had just finally put a lot of the negatives out of my mind and was getting excited but now I'm very worried about Tristan and if he is going to be ok again. I keep telling myself that he has been doing awesome the whole time with showing signs of breathing and swallowing and his chest is measuring normal and we have been throughly watched and checked out by doctors so he will be ok. I guess all I can do really is pray and we will find out in just 3 more days. After my checkup today then I have to be at the hospital for Pre-Op so it's going to be another long day of doctors appointments. On a lighter note, yesterday we went and had Destiny a Big Sister Shirt made. It's so cute. It's pink and the front says "Big Sister" in green, ofcourse since it's her favorite and the back has her name on it. Also Jess bought her a white and pink bow that says "Big Sister". Last night was Devin's last night of work until July 5th so we are excited about that. We get the weekend together before Tristan's arrival Monday.

Thanks everyone in advance for your prayers and support! We really appreciate it!!